Bare Naked

why do i do this?,
why did i have to see the past,
it is because you miss her,
it is because deep down inside you,
you have made an oath that there will be no other,
why did you have to live with this,
cause you have choose this path,
but this is not what i wanted,
u know it from the start,
remember the oath that you said to them?,
remember?,
that she will be your last and you will love her until your last day,
remember, remember, remember,
yes i remember,
and now you have lost her,
and you are your oath with or with out her,
yes, with or or without her,
my heart was just for her,
just her,
and i lost her,
but the heart is still beating just for her,
now all i can feel is pain from that,
just pain,
pain living with memories, hope and empty wish,
i understand now why i`m in pain,
because an oath can't be broken like promises,
you stick till the end of your days,
so i realise that my life will be about pain,
something that i have to accept in my life,
it may not be physically,
but more to internal pain,
pain of the heart,
i prey to God that ease the pain abit,
so i could keep my sanity,
help me to keep moving with a heavy burden,
yes, i know that life sometimes is cruel,
but maybe after my ending days,
the pain will stop,
so i can really feel the life that i miss in this world.
I miss you very much,
very, deeply......