lie to myself.....

I lied to myself,
i lied that didn't get hurt,
i lied that i`ll be okey,
i know what you want to say,
i can't be the evil man,
i can't be the cause that would come,

i lied that i understand,
i lied that this can end,
i lied that can live my life,
but i can't do it without you,
see your words makes me realize i'm done,

how i just wish this is a dream,
how i wish that i would wake up next to you,
tomorrow will be another lonely weekend,
stairing at the ceilling,
wondering how it would like to be him next to you right now,
i lied myself to sleep,

i scream so loud,
but only in my heart,
i really wanted to be next to you,
but now i know i can't,
i'll walk away now,
to where this story never ends.